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Miss him so much

Miss him so much

I’ve been crying every day ever since he left. It just hurt so bad. I miss his voice calling out my name. I miss talking and laughing with him. I miss going out to dinner, shop and travel with him. God I miss everything about him. Dear God why did you take him away from us. We needed him and you took him away. It’s not fair. Why can’t I live normally just like most people do.

All I wanted is to have a normal life. Ever since I was born my life has been always out of ordinary. I wanted my daughter to live the life I couldn’t get to live but she ended up the same like me. She will never be able feel how is it like to be loved by her father. I’m scared that someday she will ask about her father and I don’t know if I can answer all of her questions. It’s not going to be easy for me raising her all by myself. But I have to and I must. I hope I can be there for my little daughter in every step of the way. Until my time come. read more

Happy New Year and Happy 10th wedding anniversary!

Happy New Year and Happy 10th wedding anniversary!

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I would like to say Happy New Year 2011 everyone! I hope you all can stick to your New Year’s resolutions! *Hopefully I can stick with mine haha*

Also Happy 10th wedding anniversary to us! It’s been a decade and finally we have Risa. After a ton of hard work and unbearable PAIN (talking bout IVF and 6 months hospital stays) I finally get what I have been wanting for all this time.
 
I am now a proud mother to baby Risa born premature 10 weeks early and a wife to a very brave husband Naoya (inoperable pancreatic cancer stage 4B). read more

Family has arrived

Family has arrived

The whole family has arrived. The house feels a bit warmer now even though DH and FIL are still at the hospital. It’s really good to have a family that really cares. Especially when you really need them. 

Yuki was supposed to cancel her visit but Naoya asked her to come since he is now staying at hospice and worried sick about me and Risa. 

Speaking of Risa. She is having a blast with her cousin Saori chan She smiles and giggles all the time. 

Playing with her cousin

Hopefully Naoya and FIL will be able to spend the night on new year’s eve at home. Even if it’s only for one night. It’ll mean a lot to ALL of us the whole family. read more

New Year’s Resolutions

New Year’s Resolutions

New year’s almost here. Things has been really hectic for me this year. But I must admit that I am happier now. Risa made everything seems possible for me now.

Anyway. I have been thinking about my new year’s resolutions and I can only came up with these:

1. Weight loss! By the end of the year next year I’m hopping I could lose some weight. Pregnancy is a blessing but can’t stand of being chubby! But right now I can’t diet cause Risa is still small and breastfeeding.

2. Try making schedules for my LO. read more