Anyway I stumbled upon this past life reading by Astrology.com and I find it so true. I always have passion for European history especially the ancient one.

Here’s the short free reading:

Chapter 1: The Sun

Your Sun is in Leo (Tropical zodiac)
Leo symbolizes the consciousness wherein there is strength, creativity and virility, as well as a certain headstrong or willful nature in how you apply yourself in relationship with others.

For instance, Leony , reading biographical or historical novels about European royalty, daydreaming about the courts of Kings and Queens of modern Europe or ancient times and other grandeurs of the past may bring to your conscious mind memories of previous incarnations when you were at the forefront of things.  Hence to this very day there probably remains within you considerable inner strength along with a strong feeling for behind-the-scenes intrigues as well as a powerful sense of individualism.  These qualities are probably connected with your past life experiences involved — directly and indirectly — with leaders of society and government.

You are also likely to have an above-average interest in the great artistic and spiritual accomplishments of the grand cathedrals and great churches of Britain and Europe, as well as the ancient temples of the Mediterranean world

It might be a scam but it’s true, at least to me lol. I want to visit Europe someday…

I takes ages to import all my files back from iDisk. It’s only 45mb pictures folder for god’s sake and it’s been HOURS! I always had to turn off the Airport connection to stop the loading window.  I am definitely leaving mobileme for good. I have been a good customer for over 5 years and this is what I get. The damn iDisk is freaking SLOW. Mobileme is the worst Apple product ever! 

It doesn’t even allow me to sync my files anymore, too much glitch and problems for $99 USD. The transition from dotmac to mobileme is really a disaster. Heck, even dotmac wasn’t that good either but at least is didn’t give me tons of trouble sync my files. The point is,  I spent $495 USD for 5 years just for what? Only for email address and storing my 45mb pictures with tons of glitch? And now it’s getting far worst than I thought, I can’t get my files back!

Anyway, end of rant.

I need to focus, I still have 45 days to move all my files and backup my emails before my account expire. I have to start looking for mobileme alternative. Although I found many choices but not sure which one I like, yet/

For iDisk alternative : Sugarsync, Funambol,  Bingodisk, dropbox,  AmazonS3, Google service or just rent one server and work it out.

For gallery, Sugarsync, google picasa and flickr works but I have to admit the mobileme gallery looks much better but well it doesn’t matter to me.

Ugh, my head is still aching.  I’ll keep looking until I find the one I like.

I’m not recommending mobileme to all new Apple users.  I spent $99 for nothing!

Leony.net is starting to drive me crazy lmao.

Anyway, I’m tired and I have so many things I have to do. House work, networking, including working on my friend’s Calendar Collage and uploading all my photos to Photoshelter.com so I can start selling my work there. No to mention running the community that my friends and I created about a month ago.

I love doing the networking stuff but I hate doing the house chores bah. 

I’ve been thinking to get a laptop so I can do networking in the living room with my dogs near me, so I can watch the little brat, Olive. That dog has been screwing and chewing my friggin shoes, not just my shoes but everyone else’s shoes. He even chewed every corner of my house! Aghhhhh.

The last time, I got so upset and kicked him out of the house in the middle of the night, but it only lasted for about 15 minutes. Because I can’t imagine if he got hit by car or bite by other dogs in my neighbourhood lmao.

Ahh so much for ranting today. I better feed the freaking dogs.

Her mother is working everyday so I took care of her everyday after school.  She stayed for a couple of hours everyday in my house and wait for her mother to come home and pick her up.

Her big problem is she cannot wakeup and get up everytime she sleeps. She is 10 years old and her mother and ALL of us always had to force her to walk and get up everytime she took a nap in the evening. Just about half an hour ago, I had to drag her out of the house into her mother’s car so they can go home.

There’s something in this family that needs to be fix. I did fix my FIL tho, fixed his attitude quite a bit after having him to live with us for like 8 years now.

Now, I think my niece need to be fixed lmao. It just difficult because she is not my kid, so I don’t want to cross the line.

She got mother and I think that’s her mother’s job to teach her something about manner and an attitude.

I know that she’s only 10 years old but she need to CHANGE the annoying habit, because it doesn’t look pretty at all

Anyway, end or rant

It failed many times. Blah I don’t think I like the new wordpress.

I can’t! But, I’m trying to behave myself now by just getting the stuff I REALLY need when I shopping. 

Income and bills are imbalances,  absolute crisis.

Last month we had to pay almost ¥197 (around $1.93 USD) yen per liter for premium gasoline last month.

Not sure how much is that in US though.

Let me calculate using my mac system convertion lol. 1ltr = 0.26 gallon that would be around 1 gallon for 3.7 ltr. that makes it almost $7 USD per 1 gallon?

So we paid around $7 USD per 1 gallon here. It sucks, I can’t even save some $ lol.

Not to mention now Japan is starting to tone down their import products especially from China which makes things worse because almost 90% products here are imported from around the world, especially Asia and Europe. 

Oh well life is up side down I guess.

私の心今ものすごく淋しい、友達欲しいな　v＿v　。

学校の事もまだきまってない、大使館から返事もなかなかこない。

私学校行きたいのに、何で来んなに難しい　＞.<。お金の問題じゃなくて、パスポートと査証の事はまったく難しいくなったきた。

神様から何とかして下さい、お願いだから。。。

And he said that I can only renew my passport at least sixth to one month before the passport expired. My passport will expire on 7 December, 2005.

So today I made another phone call again because I assumed that, I can renew my passport starting next week (7 June). As the result I received another disappointment. He said that I should call back at least three months before my passport expired, means I have to wait until October.

I cannot wait until October to renew my passport, because I need to apply for my US student visa before the fall classes begin in September!

I was mad as hell, then I called the Consulate office back. I explained again about my situation, and he said that I should write a letter to the chief staff Consular affairs regarding my US student visa application.

Why is it so difficult? Seems like, there are so many obstacles every time I want to achieve something in my life. I know that there will be always an obstacle in our life but, I already face a lot of obstacles in my life. Why can’t just God give me a one SMOOTH way to achieve something that I have been longing for so long. It is not money or power; I just want to study abroad.

I am getting tired with all the hard work I’m doing now. I am really tired…

I realized that, everything that ever happened in my life is happened for a reason.

Now, if you’ll excuse me. I got work to do, make a letter in Indonesian language.

I don’t even know what am going to write, I rarely speak Indonesian ever since I live in Japan. I need to refresh my memory now in order to use a properly decent Indonesian language.

I mean does it make any different? Does it mean that students who study in University are smarter than those who can only afford to study in some college? What’s the fuss about being study into big/good reputation University?

Sorry for the curiosity, this thought crossed my mind after reading my friend e-mail.

Anyway, I had a small “fight” with in-laws today.

I can’t stand it, so I shouted at my father in-law about why he keep defending her spoil pathetic daughter.

I just don’t understand, why is that every time she got her period it’s always every “Sunday” in each month since last year ! So she always had an excuse not to make dinner. I am so tired of making them dinner EVERY DAY! It is not my responsibility to cook for them everyday (She only cook twice in a month, I always count it : p). Damn! She is 35 Years old for God’s sake, and I am 10 years younger than sheis!

There are so many thing I want her to know about how HARD life it is, if you live outside independently without any help from families. I don’t think she knows how does it feels to pretend to be nice little girl to someone you hate so much in your whole life just because you need him to feed you. I don’t think she knows how does it feels when a step parent touch you and all you can do it’s just silence because he’s the one who feed you unless you are ready to fight “outside in a real world” in your 13 years old.

When I look at her everyday, I felt so angry and mad with how’s life treat her. Why she just got everything so easy without have to “fight” for life or at least doing a favor for people in return for the foods or money. She just got a new job last month and already drive a new car before she actually starts the job. She asked her father to bought her a car just because there is no public transportation to her new office (only 5 miles from our house). I can understand that though.

What’s astonishing me is, on her first day at work. She crashed the car, and her father paid about $2000 dollar for the damaged she made. Her salary not even close $2000 dollar lol. Well about the accident, I understand because she just got her driving license. She doesn’t even know how to park the car when she just bought the car.

Sometimes life it is not fair to some people. Some people have to fight for “food” everyday in their life, while others just so easy to throw foods they don’t like or don’t want it anymore, just like that to the trash can.

The other day, she threw away my Onigiri and Strawberry Yogurt breakfast; it was MY breakfast she have no rights to throw away the food. I was so angry and mad because I was hungry and in pain because my period, and I need to eat something so I can take the pill to ease the pain. But, when I opened the fridge, my mind goes like 10000000 volt lol.

“Where the hell is my yogurt and onigiri?” I probably look like Elmira. The Tiny Toon character with her eyes and tongue goes bigger when she gets angry LOL.

I’m tired of venting, am I finish yet? Yes for today: p

*I may be “young” to some people but, don’t ever try to educate me about life, because I had through the most horrible part of life I could ever imagine since I was a child.*