January 9, 2012
It’s been a year since my husband died. Many things changed and I have to say that being a single parent sucks. I hate being lonely. I miss so much. I need someone to talk to about my feelings. I need to vent and rant. I can’t rant on Facebook any longer due from getting negative responses from people about my negative statuses, which is not their damn business anyway.
I hate Facebook now, it died along with my husband. I have No happy status to post on Facebook anymore. Facebook used to be fun before Naoya died. Now all that I can feel now is that I envy all of my friends who are happily married and still complain about how their husband come home late everyday while I on the other hand waiting for nothing everyday. Sometimes I wish this is all just a nightmare and I’d wake up and see him by my side. God I miss so much that it hurts so bad.
August 8, 2011
11-8-8-8:07: 7 months has passed.
And I’m still grieving and sadly none of the ppl I know truly understand how I feel. Wait there’s one because she’s also lost someone she love so much recently. But she told me that her lost is nothing compare to me.
I need to talk so someone, someone that experienced the same thing. Someone that also lost her spouse. May I say widow to widow talk?
Some say that I need get over it and face the reality. Believe me. I am trying so damn hard to face the truth the he’ll never ever going to come back. I’m still keeping my husband’s things, his favourite things. I want and need to show them to my daughter someday when she’s grow up.
July 28, 2009
Spent the whole day at the hospital today and I am so exhausted 🙁
Anyway I stumbled upon this past life reading by Astrology.com and I find it so true. I always have passion for European history especially the ancient one.
Here’s the short free reading:
Chapter 1: The Sun
Your Sun is in Leo (Tropical zodiac)
Leo symbolizes the consciousness wherein there is strength, creativity and virility, as well as a certain headstrong or willful nature in how you apply yourself in relationship with others.
December 3, 2008
Forgive me I need to get this out of my chest!
I takes ages to import all my files back from iDisk. It’s only 45mb pictures folder for god’s sake and it’s been HOURS! I always had to turn off the Airport connection to stop the loading window. I am definitely leaving mobileme for good. I have been a good customer for over 5 years and this is what I get. The damn iDisk is freaking SLOW. Mobileme is the worst Apple product ever!
It doesn’t even allow me to sync my files anymore, too much glitch and problems for $99 USD. The transition from dotmac to mobileme is really a disaster. Heck, even dotmac wasn’t that good either but at least is didn’t give me tons of trouble sync my files. The point is, I spent $495 USD for 5 years just for what? Only for email address and storing my 45mb pictures with tons of glitch? And now it’s getting far worst than I thought, I can’t get my files back!