Category: Moody

Rant 2012

Rant 2012

It’s been a year since my husband died. Many things changed and I have to say that being a single parent sucks. I hate being lonely. I miss so much. I need someone to talk to about my feelings. I need to vent and rant. I can’t rant on Facebook any longer due from getting negative responses from people about my negative statuses, which is not their damn business anyway.

I hate Facebook now, it died along with my husband. I have No happy status to post on Facebook anymore. Facebook used to be fun before Naoya died. Now all that I can feel now is that I envy all of my friends who are happily married and still complain about how their husband come home late everyday while I on the other hand waiting for nothing everyday. Sometimes I wish this is all just a nightmare and I’d wake up and see him by my side. God I miss so much that it hurts so bad. read more

7 months

7 months

11-8-8-8:07: 7 months has passed.
And I’m still grieving and sadly none of the ppl I know truly understand how I feel. Wait there’s one because she’s also lost someone she love so much recently. But she told me that her lost is nothing compare to me.

I need to talk so someone, someone that experienced the same thing. Someone that also lost her spouse. May I say widow to widow talk?
Some say that I need get over it and face the reality. Believe me. I am trying so damn hard to face the truth the he’ll never ever going to come back. I’m still keeping my husband’s things, his favourite things. I want and need to show them to my daughter someday when she’s grow up. read more

Feeling so tired

Feeling so tired

Spent the whole day at the hospital today and I am so exhausted 🙁

Anyway I stumbled upon this past life reading by Astrology.com and I find it so true. I always have passion for European history especially the ancient one.

Here’s the short free reading:

Chapter 1: The Sun

Your Sun is in Leo (Tropical zodiac)
Leo symbolizes the consciousness wherein there is strength, creativity and virility, as well as a certain headstrong or willful nature in how you apply yourself in relationship with others.
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Mobileme the worst Apple product

Mobileme the worst Apple product

Forgive me I need to get this out of my chest!

I takes ages to import all my files back from iDisk. It’s only 45mb pictures folder for god’s sake and it’s been HOURS! I always had to turn off the Airport connection to stop the loading window.  I am definitely leaving mobileme for good. I have been a good customer for over 5 years and this is what I get. The damn iDisk is freaking SLOW. Mobileme is the worst Apple product ever! 

It doesn’t even allow me to sync my files anymore, too much glitch and problems for $99 USD. The transition from dotmac to mobileme is really a disaster. Heck, even dotmac wasn’t that good either but at least is didn’t give me tons of trouble sync my files. The point is,  I spent $495 USD for 5 years just for what? Only for email address and storing my 45mb pictures with tons of glitch? And now it’s getting far worst than I thought, I can’t get my files back! read more