Author: Leony

Blogging; yay or nay 0

Blogging; yay or nay

Don’t know what to do with this site anymore, I wonder do people still do blog or not anymore?
I know that there are loads of social networking online these days, Facebook, Instagram, Twitter etc but I wonder if there are still people do blogging these days.

No more miscarriage please

No more miscarriage please

It’s been over one hour and I’m still waiting for a doctor appointment today and fertility clinic. Got a feeling that I’m having another miscarriage again. The tiny baby has stopped growing, just like 2 years ago. 

Just don’t understand why God gives hope but then he took it away again. Im not tired of trying  but I’m tired of putting my hope again and again but it never works.

Though the baby might stopped growing since 5 weeks pregnancy but I still feel the pregnancy symptom and I hate it. I don’t want to feel pregnant while I’m losing the baby.  read more

It’s been ages

It’s been ages

Wanna take pictures again. But don’t know where to start again. Just lost interest on everything for the last 7 years. I guess grief has taken a great toll on me.

But now that I’m back reside living in my birth country I don’t know where to start. I need a huge motivations to bring back the “old me” again.

I guess things will never be the same again when it’s broken shattered into pieces.
I miss myself, I miss the “old me”. I miss the person I used to be. read more

Winter is here

Winter is here

Winter is here

I can’t believe it’s November already. The weather is getting cold, winter is definitely here. Not really fond of Winter because it makes me feel so lonely than ever. Supposed to be Autumn though but I guess no Autumn this year in Japan? LOL. Gotta stay warm during the cold season, I couldn’t afford to get sick since I’m a single mother now.

Risa is 3 year and 7 month old now. Watching her growing day by day is really something and I wouldn’t trade with anything in the world 🙂
I treasure every moment with her. She grows so fast, every moment is precious and I won’t waste it. read more