My life ~ My Journey

February 4, 2017
by Leony
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No more miscarriage please

It’s been over one hour and I’m still waiting for a doctor appointment today and fertility clinic. Got a feeling that I’m having another miscarriage again. The tiny baby has stopped growing, just like 2 years ago. 

Just don’t understand why God gives hope but then he took it away again. Im not tired of trying  but I’m tired of putting my hope again and again but it never works.

Though the baby might stopped growing since 5 weeks pregnancy but I still feel the pregnancy symptom and I hate it. I don’t want to feel pregnant while I’m losing the baby. 

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February 3, 2017
by Leony
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It’s been ages

Wanna take pictures again. But don’t know where to start again. Just lost interest on everything for the last 7 years. I guess grief has taken a great toll on me.

But now that I’m back reside living in my birth country I don’t know where to start. I need a huge motivations to bring back the “old me” again.

I guess things will never be the same again when it’s broken shattered into pieces.
I miss myself, I miss the “old me”. I miss the person I used to be.

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