Can’t believe this is my first entry in 2013. I have been away for a while and my life has changed so much. I am now a full time single mother. I love being a mother but I hate being a widow. And by the way Risa is now 3 years old, amazing how time flies so quick! She is now in pre-school, she love it so much and I am so happy that love her new world.
As for me, I don’t know what I’m going to do now. I have a couple hours to do things I want to do but I’m not sure if I could find a job which may not be easy to find a job for single mother like me. I may need to rush the ER when Risa get sick and take a few days off. So Like I said, it is not easy to find a job for single mother.
Anyway, it is really nice to finally have some time for myself, but I still can’t get myself to do the thing that I used to love doing, taking pictures. I think I lost it somewhere. I need to get it back and start doing it again.
I miss talking to someone at home, miss my late husband so much. I know he is now in a better place and watching over us now.
I really don’t have any plan for my life and I’m no planning to re-marry. I love being alone right now, just my daughter and I.
Oh God, I miss him so much. It’s been two and a half years since he passed a way but I still cry a lot. I don’t know when the pain will go away. Will it EVER go away? I wonder when I’ll be able to stop grieving and move on.
By the way here’s Risa and she’s 3 years old. She’s my precious.