It’s been a year since my husband died. Many things changed and I have to say that being a single parent sucks. I hate being lonely. I miss so much. I need someone to talk to about my feelings. I need to vent and rant. I can’t rant on Facebook any longer due from getting negative responses from people about my negative statuses, which is not their damn business anyway.

I hate Facebook now, it died along with my husband. I have No happy status to post on Facebook anymore. Facebook used to be fun before Naoya died. Now all that I can feel now is that I envy all of my friends who are happily married and still complain about how their husband come home late everyday while I on the other hand waiting for nothing everyday. Sometimes I wish this is all just a nightmare and I’d wake up and see him by my side. God I miss so much that it hurts so bad.

I feel miserable everyday. It’s hurts because the memories of him still and will be forever in my mind. I’ve been crying everyday lately. And I don’t know how to stop. Maybe someday I will stop crying.

By the way I have deleted my Facebook account. This time for good as I won’t be back. I need to start a new thing. New people, new beginning again. New friends. So Good bye Facebook as I have nothing left to share other than my miserable life.

Anyway enough bout Facebook. I Skyped with mother today. Got some not great news. Some people just got too much time on their hands to gossip about other people busines. Also found out that one of my relatives has been talking about my mother and I behind our back. Screw them, I don’t care about them anymore. The only family I got left now is my little girl, my mother and my brothers. The rest are just bleh.