Risa finally sleeping. Now I get to write something on my blog. The only problem is I don’t know what to write. I feel empty and lonely.
It would be nice to have someone you could talk to, whatever it is you want to talk about. No secret whatsoever, just spill them out. I used to do that to my husband. He would laugh or smile listening to me venting about silly stuff. When I feel sad, he would hug me really tight.
Now, I have no one to talk to or even give me a hug. I can only cry for hours. Sometimes I feel like am going crazy, crying all the time. I know that a year has passed and thought that it would be better after that but I was wrong. It worse than I thought it would be. Maybe it’s because I have the in-laws still sticking around.
Sometimes I wonder, would it be better if it’s just Risa and I?
We could be happier. I would be happier. But when it will be? When I can finally get my ” freedom”? It’s funny that this is our house (Risa and I) but I don’t feel free at all.
I don’t know what to do to make me feel better. I don’t do shopping, but I do online shopping though but then again it’s not helping. I took pictures a week ago but I haven’t got the time uploading them to my laptop or iPad. I couldn’t even touch my laptop. Risa will take over and mess around with my aperture again. The last time she touch my laptop, she uploaded over 200 pictures of HER to my Flickr account. What a Little geek.
I should go to bed before she wakes up again. Goodnight, good morning, good afternoon internet.