It is been a week again, I didn’t update my blog. Although I am still having a problem with sleep though.

I’m planning to go to see doctor this weekend. I cannot believe I actually lost my interest on any of my hobby or things I always love to do.

I lost my appetite, I lost 11 pounds in 3 weeks, from 101 pounds to 88 pounds lol. (46kg to 40kg). I feel so fragile and sensitive lately.

I cried almost every night, feeling less comfort in my own bed and room, I feel suffocated and getting stomach aches everyday. I hate seeing myself in the mirror, I feel like am losing myself.

This week is The Golden week (Japanese holiday for a week) and my husband will try to comfort me and make me feel better while he is off work. He has done everything he could to cheer me up, helped me to forget all the past behind by being there always with me and hugs me when I started to feel low and sad.

Anyway, I’m counting down the days now. I can’t wait to start working on my passport and visa application.

Speaking of Tiger, new Apple Mac OS. I am going to upgrade mine next week. But first, I have to backup everything. In case of something bad happens, I don’t want to lose all my important files again. Not this time.

I’ve bought 160GB HD back up, and I have cloned my home folder to my new backup HD. But, I feel I still need to make another backup on DVD-R just for my graphics and photos files.

See you on my next update.