Why everything in my life always has to be patience and difficult to dealt with.

I cannot apply for my student visa until I renewed my passport validations. Which means I have to wait until 7 June to renew my passport and then apply for visa soon after I get my passport back renewed.

It will take at least a month to wait for passport to be renew.

Lets just say, I will get my passport back in July 7 and apply for my student visa on the next day.

And again, waiting for interview along whether US embassy will accept my student visa application or not.

Shit, I HATE WAITING !

I have been so patient with unfortunates events I had in my whole my life over 25 years, I am so damn tired of “waiting” in my life.

I am tired of waiting to meet my real father.

I am tired of waiting that someday I will have my own family.

I am tired of waiting to get and to find my own “home”.

I am tired to keep locked all bad memories I have in my life in a “Pandora” s box “.

I am tired of waiting when will my husband family “leave ” us alone.

I am tired of my mother asking me a favor in financial situations every now and then.

I am tired of waiting and trying to reach my happiness.

The most of all, I am so damn tired to be always “strong ” and “patience “.

I am not a saint, am just a human being who never stop hopping that someday I will find my happiness by being patience and strong.

Damn it!