I don’t know if i’m fine or not..
I’ve been so lazy to write something on my journal, because all i have in my thoughts for over this 2 month is anger and tears. I keep fighting that stupid moody feelings out of my head.
I win but only for a moments, and then it comes again and makes me feels sad and anger and upset and everything. I don’t even know what would i say to people everytime they ask me ” how are you ?”.
I lost my appetite, my creativity, and everything.
When i need a friends, they all gone, but when they need me i always tried to help them even if i have to risk something just to help them..
I don’t even have real friends in my dailies life, i feel so lonely …
I have a friends, but they all just a “friends” , nothing more..
My only best friends i have now is my husband , see how lonely iam ?
Tomorrow at 5 pm i have an appointment with my doc, i have to go to the hospitals again.
Then on 5 March at 5 pm i have to go again with hubby.
God help me through this toughie moment i have now .
I’ve already passed 2 times before in my life , and now you are giving me again…
I know i can pass this, i just need a little time or more..
And after that i must be ready again for the next chalenge you’ll give me…
I wonder what will it be ……