I just wake up..from my 3 a clock sleeping.., i cant sleep last nite
I slept at 3 aclock in the morning, with variable positions..hehehhe,
I turn to the right..i saw my hubby back, i turn to the left i saw nothing outside the window.
and i did that so many times until i get my eyes feel tired and fall a sleep .
I just feel not in the mood today.. .

I put this entry in extended entry cuz i dont want my blog entry become long in front page.
Well im going to write more..latter after i’m done with my job.

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okay im back..
after making lunch for my hubby, and chat an hour with my friends.
Im going to write all the thought in my mind.
Well …. i’ve been throught a lot of hard time before i maried my husband.
Actually i came from a broken home familly, my mother and father was divorced since i was baby.
And then i live with my grandma.
I m happy live with her…and i got my verry best friends mita, she’s my best friends i ever had in my whole life . But now i dont know where she is…last news i’ve heard about her was she’s gone to malaysia with her parents. *i missed her so much .
Year past by and my grandma become old…so my grandma decided to hand over me to my mother.
Yeah my life with my mother..i cannot tell you i was happy or un happy..cuz i live with my step father also..:(.
And my dear lovely mother she got very bad tempered !!!.
Perhaps i got her howler everyday 1 times…hahahah. *lol*.
Im having hard time when i live with my mother..you know how is it feel to live with step father and mother who always give you direct howler .
I met my mother when i was elementary 5.
And i live with her.. about 6 -7 years.
Well i dont wanna write the whole my life story cuz it would take a week to type it hahaha :blush:
But now its the most happy live i’ve ever had….live with my lovely husband :hehe:
And im so desperatelly wanna have a child… . !
Its been 2 years over since my wedding day..but still im not pregnant yet .
The doctor said we both are fine..no problem…
But why ..
im trying hard to conceive now…..:(.
Thats way i’m always busy with my pc..cuz i tried to be relax, tried not to think about baby’s thing.
But today when woke up..i cant help it, it’s crossed over my mind again…hiks..
Dont do this to me..god…i already got enough from you.
No more pain pleaseee