Time flies fast
Helloo blog. It’s been a while I haven’t updated this poor blog for ages. I just don’t have the time to write.
It’s been a hectic year for me. Husband is dying due to pancreatic cancer. Gave birth to premature baby girl Risa. And now my FIL is also under the weather. He’s been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease.
I’m so tired with my life. I can only try to be strong and I have to try to be on my own from now on.
According to the doctor, DH doesn’t have much time but we’ll see.
He can no longer walk because cancer has spread to his bones. The pain is unbearable. I couldn’t stand to see him suffer like this.
If only there’s a way to relieve the pain.
As for my little one. Risa is now 8 months old (6 months old adjusted). I’ve been watching her miles-stone everyday and she’s doing good so far. She can roll over in both sides, now almost crawling but mostly backwards. She also able to sit unsupported for a minute or two.
Had her first solid food around 5 and half month and she love foods soo much. She would grab eveeerything I eat or drink.
and would try to imitates everything I do or say. She is my miracle, the light of my life.
I don’t know what am gonna do without her. She made me strong, stronger than ever. She gives me hope that someday we will find happiness together. She will grow up without her father and I can accept that. I grew up without a father and here I am a live and getting stronger everyday.
I have so many worries and concern but I have to try to enjoy every minutes of my life now. Time flies really fast.
I remember last year December I was laying hopelessly in the hospital bedroom trying to save the life of my baby in the womb due to pregnancy complication total Placenta Previa. I was unable to pee or poop like normal people do. It was the most challenging moment in my entire life.
Here’s latest of Risa pic!